Bare with me… Yes I mean be naked with me. I want the truth and nothing but the truth.I want your naked body pressed next to mine. I want simplicity and peace.
I go through my days wanting to bare it all out and have someone do the same with me. Every day I wake up wishing I was a bear, naked in the woods eating salmon and berries. I hate bearing the pressure that builds up in every orifice of my life. I want to lose everything and have a clean start. My life is cluttered with so much and I just can’t seem to sort anything. I used to want to live on an island where my instincts would help me survive. An island where there would be no long term goal and my only worry would be to find food and to keep my shelter protected. A place where natural selection would be law and the notion of giving thought to tomorrow would be foolish. Alas, I am not on that island. I am here in this society where I sweat the little stuff and worry about things out of my control.
So these days, when nothing seems to go the right way, I fantasize about being a bear. Somewhere in the woods, with my bare body strolling the bushes and rivers looking for food. Not concerned with who will see me to judge, and most importantly no time constrains to stress me. I will hibernate through out winter and in spring rise again to find a mate and eat. What a life!
I find my self hiding away from most of you these days. I guess I feel more safe in my cave.
I understand the idea of living as a bear, naked wold be nice however bears live where it is cold and one would freeze, unless they were really a bear. However I like my skin and i think i would be satified buddling up in bear skin, or bear fur. Just like at the ice hotel in Quebec Canada or Norway, however Canada has a very nice ice hotel i saw picutres of it on a dr’s phone today and i just got added to my bucket list, when you see the photos well i hope you see them its leves me wordless, no really wordless….. the dots are my wordless moment. anyway, With out trying to get to personal which i really dont care because your post says you dont either so i ll get very personal. In my life i feel like peaks and valleys. I go through stages of highs and lows, i would say at like 3 to 4 week intervals of being really happy and not knowing or being able to identify why and then really low almost just a down state , and not much of anything makes me happy, and i start to reflect on why i was so happy and was i really happy or just convincing my self that i was. Im sorry if non of this makes any sense or if you read this and wish you had not. When i look through your post Sweetheart (and i mean this in a most caring and compassionate way) (the use of the name sweetheart) you have ups and downs really high post then really low post. Sounds familiar I start to wonder is that even something i have control over with myself, is it a chemical imbalance, is it not enough sunlight or what I dont know, i would like to know, any way please let me know what you think or if i am just losing my sanity slowly…………………………………